tell me you love me. – an original poem
tell me you love me.
an original poem
by bethany cohen
tell me you love me.
that is all i ask.
it sounds so simple,
yet it is so hard
hard for people to say.
only 3 simple words,
yet meaning far grander
grander than they appear
i am afraid of them
of the disappointment
the rejection
the let down
because of my
fear & insecurity:
inadequacy.
i am riddled
with doubt
because i have to
reciprocate
& often times my reciprocation
is greater than theirs
will ever be.
is it because of something
i did
or say
how i looked
or dressed?
what could I have done
better?
more?
something and someone
you would have wanted.
give me another try
please,
i beg of you.
yet are these fears & insecurities
mirrors of me…
or of you?
i will value myself
for who i am
& all that i am.
i need not to question
myself nor
my worth.
i need to question
why i let myself
let you
tear me down
rip me to shreds
question myself
strip me of my innocence and purity
taint me and paint me
just because
you thought
i was not enough for you
the truth of the matter is
i am enough
for myself
i deserve a love that is
equal.
one that
complements me
not completes
or competes me,
for i am a whole
a whole person
with whole feelings
i smile.
i cry.
i anger.
i tire.
i forget.
yet i continue
each day more
to see who
i am
& love me.
soon,
one day,
maybe
you will too.
yet i need not
exert all my
worries, anxieties, doubts, inhibitions
be filled up by you.
out there
is someone
who will not hesitate
for a second
or a moment not too late
he will tell me he loves me
with every chance
he will say it assuredly
at every glance
he will chase after me
in wild and relentless
unprecedented fervor and passion
& i will know he is
the one
because he knew
that i was his
from the moment
oh, that moment
we set eyes
on each other
& he reciprocated
the love that I had wanted
all along.
P.s. I was listening to the song “Even If It’s a Lie” by Matt Maltese so this poem was loosely inspired by that song. Real tear jerker, heart throbber of a song. Take a listen if you want.
